Saturday, September 16, 2006
sometimes knowing lesser is better.. yet somestimes i wanna know more..if i want to see with both eyes again i gotta relax..if i cannot see for too long.. and both eyes go, it'll be permenant.. but wuth the recent spate of events,can i? i need understanding from some people...but they cannot give me that understanding..my mom, she cannot give me that..all she ever knows howta do is think that i'm mixing with bad company..she thinks drinking is about mixing with bad company..why doesn't she ever ask me.. "what's wrong? why do you drink?"i really wanted to see something for the last time..my o levels are coming.. i'm already stressed enough..my mom stresses me, my buddy's prob stresses me,my misfortunes stresses me, my friend..by saying you're stressed, makes me stressed too..look at it this way.. my life's a mess.. i need a break.. but my mom doesn't wanna give me one..from the end of prelims, school's gnna be like what? 7.20am-6.00pm..you're askin me to stay in school for 11 hours? i cannot study in school..and after school, i'll be tired.. and i'll go home.. but i only can study outside.. so is that "study program" of any help?no.. that's what stressing me the most now..i wanna study, school doesn't give me a chance to..like, whatever... life's jus a mess and it sucks...kai.. why that day you came.. never take a knife and just stab me..i'm telling you.. i will love you man... you wanted to whack me..in the end? never whack.. if you take knife just chiam...everything sua.. i can take a long break redi.. don't ever needa come back..now lehh.. because u just left me angry..i went to punch wall until i had so many wounds on my right hand...so difficult to write... sua lah.. life just sucks.. nothing more to say to that...
thickening the mask and nourishing the devil@ {10:28 AM}
